What do I want to do with my time on this earth?
Maybe that’s the problem: I no longer believe in “this earth.” I no longer believe in an objective world outside myself, or I should say, outside of eternal oneness. Therefore I no longer believe that there can be a true problem. I no longer believe there is anything to fix on behalf of others because I no longer believe anything can be broken except in MY mind. I believe everything is as it “should” be. The problem I experience is that this idea seems to kill all of my motivation for contributing anything to the world (beyond improvements to my own thinking about it).
I don’t believe in “this earth” but I do suddenly believe in “this heaven”…even though I forget to live in it sometimes.
Maybe the question is...
What do I want to do with my time in this HEAVEN?
What do I want to do with an existence that is already complete? Where nothing is broken, no one needs me and there’s no attention to leverage (because all is one), no love to earn (because my very essence is love)?
What do I do in a universe where there’s nothing to win or lose? Where the very notion of winning and losing is absurd?
What do I want to do with my time in this HEAVEN?