“Waiting to be ready” before I go after something I want in life feels like the right thing to do. It feels like self care - and it is - but I have to define “ready” the right way.
If “ready” means “all green lights as far as I can see,” then I’m screwed. I will never be done waiting.
If “ready” means “at peace with any outcome,” then I’m in good shape. Then I’ll know when I’m done waiting.
I am ready if I do not think I need things to turn out any particular way. I am not ready when I feel like I can’t handle certain outcomes. When I feel I can’t handle a particular outcome it’s because I have some healing to do. Healing is a real need that requires the space for wholehearted recovery and help from others. It does no good to keep running on a broken leg.
The way I heal is to question every thought that tells me I need things to work out in any particular way, every thought that tells me I can lose anything I really need. When I finally believe that I can pursue any want and the universe will always hold me regardless of the outcome, that every possible outcome is the universe working on my behalf, I will find that I am ready for anything.